Pathetic

Maybe that’s what I am today.

I still dream of you

So often

It’s so real I can feel you.

I pretend I’m still near you.

But you went away.

I know you have multiplied.

Did you know that I could have died.

I waited on you - tell me why.

Last night, I dreamed of you.

I told you then it was me not you.

All that time I thought it was you.

But now you have three and I’m through.

My one that I loved so much

I haven’t seen in years now. He took off

Away from me and ripped my heart out

So many tears now.

I told you last night.

I couldn’t have more… And you shrugged,

Like you had shrugged once before.

Like you had this with everyone.

With anyone who’d adore you.

I believed you. I trusted you.

I loved you. For sure.

I struggle now to find purpose

For more. More days. More nights.

You were my very best friend.
I’ve never had it like that.

And I don’t think I will again.

Nevermore. 

Right? I’m no Edgar Allen Poe.

I’m just a pathetic fool now.

Wanting nonsense no more.

Wanting out of this life here.

It’s nonstop torture.